Alaala

Na aalala kita sa tuwing sasapit ang tag ulan....

..animo'y ikaw ang bawat patak at ako ang iyong daluyan..

Na aalala kita sa tuwing sasapit ang gabi...
....nangangarap na sana'y sa gitna ng pagka himbing ikaw ang aking katabi...

Na aalala kita sa pag buka ng liwayway....
...sa pagitan ng dilim at liwanag naroon ako't nag hihintay..
   na lulumbay...
   umaasang darating pa ang pagkakataong ikaw na ang kasama sa pang habang buhay  .

Na aalala kita sa pag saklob ng dapit hapon....
...matatapos ang buong araw na tulad lang ng dati o kagaya ng kahapon...
...walang kasing pait ang lagpasan ako ng panahon...

Uulitin ko pa ba? Sa palagay ko ay hindi na.
Ngunit sa kabila ng palagay ko'y alam kong uulitin ko pa.
Uulitin ko mula simula....hanggang sa ang sakit ay tuluyan nang ma wala..

Na aalala kita sa bawat dampi ng iyong pagmamahal na hatid ay pasakit...
...sa bawat pangarap na alam kong hindi ko na makakamit.

...sa bawat pag-asang matayog ngunit kapos sa pag kakataon...
...sa bawat balik tanaw ng alalang  lumubog na't kailan ma'y di na aahon...

Kung ang ibigin ka ay isang krimen... nanaisin kong  igapos ako sa kulungan mahal...

I-kulong ako sa pang habang buhay hanggang sa malaman mong iniibig kita mahal...

 Saksi ang mga anghel ng langit at lupa...
...na ang lahat ay mananatiling malawak na karagatan ng luha..

Alam kong ang  bawat ala ala ay unti unting kukupas at dahan dahang mawawala...

..ngunit hindi ang ikaw sa isip ko mahal...

..hindi ang pag ibig ko sayo mahal...


*Disclaimer: I do not own the photo.

THE GOLDEN TRIGGER ON A FULL-TIME TRAVEL

It’s when you’re sailing a boat, bound to the land of myth a.k.a happiness, when in the middle of it, a sudden crack appeared on your sailboat and you can clearly picture out what will happen next…
..you might find yourself fixing the crack… or maybe, you’ll get terrified the moment you learn that you lack of tools or worst, no tools at all… or perhaps, when you’ve got to realize it can’t be fixed, you will just accept the inevitable chance of drowning… unless you know how to swim…

All the famous quotations and words about happiness simply boils down to one thing… it is found inside us… 

So no matter how far we’ve traveled… nor how long we’ve been on a trip.. Our illusions about happiness  would only give us loads full of disappointments and desperation… It cannot be a place, a person, or a thing to goal for.

I am on a travel…  The travel I am in is not just a one full sitting trip, the road isn’t always straight, sometimes I had to walk miles if the engine shutoff, there were times that I had to take a whole year of flight after. Sometimes a tragic plane crash would happen and before having a time to remember all the emergency instructions demonstrated by the flight crew, I’d found myself stupidly shocked and couldn’t even grab a life jacket or something to survive.  The tendency would either be a crash landing or a water landing. Sometimes I died and later on go back to life again… back to land travel, or maybe swimming against the current…then continue traveling.

As I grew old allowing to continue the whole process over and over again, I grew up realizing that happiness is found along the travel, and the golden trigger to pull is myself.. I figured out there isn’t any specific places to aim, there is only traveling… and it only ends the moment we stop.

I remember one of my school field trip way back before, it’s funny coz nobody choose the seat beside me, maybe for three reasons: first, I don’t talk much. Second, everyone is aware that I only have my famous granny-made egg sandwich for snack and a tetra pack of juice as always and third, my opinions and ideas about things which is usually straight and weird doesn't  suit to their taste.

By the end of the whole trip, those who got all the reasons to enjoy has the most complains. Dana’s unfed tamagochi pet died and made her sad until the next day. Jenny hates her best friend for consuming her camera batteries by taking tons of pictures without her. Our class adviser is freaking and shouting coz the class is hyper happy singing random songs while on the trip all the way long..

It is terrible how some of us couldn’t afford to be happy in the presence of great things, big or small, and it’s funny how we complain in front of  those blessings that others has been longing for.  

We wanted to be happy, we were leaping from one place to another,  but we are never satisfied…

Every time I am about to seize happiness along my travel in life, I would always remind myself that I have an all-knowing one God,  He gave me my own trigger to pull so i can have a shot… 

I can be happy wherever…. whenever I want.

Disclaimer: I do not own the picture above. i got it from google images..

My name is Khan

Religion and humanity.

I guess this movie is loudly voicing it out, whether we like what we are hearing or not, hating it will never affect its own message that there are things here on earth people never want to understand.  

In this movie, Mr. Khan’s unfortunate condition (for having Asperger’s syndrome) is a huge depicting irony to the blindness of a foolish mankind, it mirrors images and visions that everyone is visibly seeing but would rather choose to have lack of sight.   

He is having trouble expressing both verbal and non-verbal communication, he was clumsy and seemed awkward at times but all of these never deprived him to embrace life and things in a form of wisdom that he truly understands.  We, being  a normal don’t usually do that, we’re all great at expressing things in words and projecting feelings through actions but we rarely think about the importance of weighing our own reasons about why we’re doing it.  

There are times like…

•   Foolish and proud, people tend to mock things they don’t understand.                 

• When overloaded with knowledge, human has the tendency to impose superiority through  self-rated wit and acquiring confidence out of their own false self-belief.

• Some would exclaim to be opinionated… stuck to their homemade reality and would speak of things that even if its 1% fact and 99% self- portrayed, opinions would still be served warm as if  a huge bowl of truth that every fools were buying and would just swallow it whole.       

We all got scales for weighing our own reasoning and thoughts, and it differs according to how we calibrate it. We may include people’s approval, the so-called norm and standards to our calibration but we couldn’t care less about what exactly is right.    

Mr. Khan’s story isn’t new to us, neither the whole situation. Just one news on a television and everyone think it is serious because they got the American President on the video do the talking, one violent act of a Muslim and he will be called terrorist. We can all be honest to admit that when we hear the term terrorist there’s nothing else to think but a Muslim, and it’s funny that everyone heard the word Muslim terrorist but nobody pointed out and call someone a Buddhist terrorist, or calling Hitler a Christian terrorist for the fact that he was raised by a Catholic parents. 

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Wikipedia said “An idea is a name or mental impression; Ideas are often construed as representational images, i.e., images of some object.”  

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 If we were only smart enough to dig for an object to feed our own mental impression, then we could be wise enough to choose when to believe and what to believe…

.. because everyone got opinions but there are only few who were well informed. 

(Note: if your mind is pre-conditioned against it or to something else, just don’t watch it, it won’t make any sense)

          

                                               

Poops of the mind of fools

Yes.. i mean it.. poops.
Doo-doo.
Excreta.
...likely known as feces (ta-e).

Nakoula Basseley Nakoula, hiding from a name of  "Sam Bacile" wrote and produced a  2hr  movie entitled "Innocence of Muslims". I first saw the trailers in youtube early this September 2012 with 200+  viewers and now maybe 2 millions or more..i tried it once again after a week but it was already blocked.

It's not a block-buster-movie-like,  that you would care to buy some pop-corn..
... not unless the controversy of this movie would put you to an urge to watch it. 

I find it satire.. a type of literary genre that features a strong form of  sarcasm, although it may seem like a parody or a spoof,  it still speak  forms of attack in some way to Muslims... The whole movie was disavowed by its  cast and crew members and exclaim  it was overdubbed and that they were used, that the said movie was meant for another story,  this statement is according to what i have read in wiki, but according to what i saw in the movie, regardless of the speech, whether it was overdubbed or not, the whole act was absurd.

The spreading film was a total false depiction of the Prophet known to Muslims, Mohammad (PBUH).
In any kind of religious groups,none of them has ever wished to  be put  in shame, anyone who profess their faith and carry doctrines of beliefs never wanted to allow mockery.

Some Muslims around the world held protest against the film. At first my reaction was, Muslims were too reactionary  about it, I mean if the film wasn't true, then why bother go out and spend energy to shout over people behind walls with mind inside a nutshell doing some poops??

As I read more and more about it, I found out why some of them (Muslims) were triggered to violence. Some pooping mind ride on the game and created a naked cartoons of the Prophet Mohammad(PBUH), there are cases where posing on youtube another horrible things about it is almost like watching old-school porn. 

On the other hand, the Muslims act of burning flags of America and Israel while shouting a beg for death of both counties doesn't really help at all. It only adds tension amongst religion haters..it only made the fools mind to poop more.

Everybody has its role to this kind of picture. There are people who are like push-buttons, when u push it, expect a fire burst, and there are some who were born only to take part of pushing it, if they knew your a button to push, they would love to see you on fire, so they chase and push  you. There are some who are just a foolish haters, nothing to do but hate, hating things they don't even know...some are  unconsciously deluded about misuse of freedom, calling the said film as an act of freedom of expression..

Freedom of what?
Since when was the birth of  such horrible act of damaging  another's   faith by attacking it so bad and call it  just an expression of freedom? 

It is crazy that some people made up their own thoughts and actions to things out of the poops of their mind...poops and nothing else.

Surely, this kind of mad situation isn't new to us....  and our own judgement will differ according to our own understanding, and we understand things through extractions of  stored information we have... and yet, too bad there are humans who got the nerve to carry out heavy judgement  out of lame understanding backing it up with informations that although stored, yet they themselves never  wisely perceived....

My mind poops sometimes...but not that fool to poop wherever she like.

Does your mind too? if it is so, clean it.... and put that poop in place.

TINUMBOK NA SALAWIKAIN

Paunawa:  Ang mga sumusunod ay hindi paksa upang magpatawa lamang, ito din  ay upang mag bigay pansin sa ibang kahulugan at panibagong  anyo ng aral sa bawat binagong salawikain (chos!).  Ang lahat ay  orihinal na gawa ng may akda (ako), kung labag sa loob at hindi maka payag ay mangyari lamang na huwag na ituloy ang pag-babasa. =D

Bato bato sa langit ang tatamaan ay huwag magagalit.

    -Bato bato sa langit ang tatamaan ay sinadyang patamaan.

    -Bato bato sa langit ang tatamaan ay umilag na lang.

    -Bato bato sa langit ang hindi tinamaan ay nakailag na.

Habang maiksi ang  kumot, matutong mamaluktot.

    -Habang maiksi ang kumot, matutong pumili ng mas malaking kumot.

    -Habang maiksi ang kumot,  huwag makuntento sa pamamaluktot, mag-unat at humanap ng

     king-  sized na kumot.

Walang matigas na tinapay sa mainit na kape.

    -Walang matigas na tinapay sa mainit na kape, yun ay kung  sinawsaw mo .

Nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa.

     -Nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang ngawa.

     -Nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang paawa.

Ako ang nagbayo ako ang nagsaing saka ng maluto'y iba ang kumain.

    -Ako ang nagbayo ako ang nagsaing saka ng maluto'y iba ang kumain, dahil ako ang tanga.

Walang humawak ng lutuan na hindi naulingan.

    -Walang humawak ng lutuan na  hindi naulingan, dahil hindi kinuskus maigi ang lutuan.

    -Walang humawak ng lutuan na hindi naulingan, dahil walang gumamit ng basahan.

Puro kahol walang kagat.

     -Puro kahol walang kagat,  bungi kasi.

Marami ka pang bigas na kakainin.

    -Marami ka pang bigas na kakainin, wala ka namang uulamin.

    -Marami ka pang bigas na kakainin, isaing ng  hindi mahirapan nguyain.

Matalino man daw ang matsing naiisahan din.

    -Matalino man daw ang matsing naiisahan din ng kapwa matsing.

Kapag may itinanim may aanihin.

    -Kapag may itinanim may didiligan.

    -Kapag may itinanim, wag atat, patubuin muna bago  anihin.

Huli man daw at magaling, naihahabol din.

    -Huli man daw at magaling, kaltas-sahod pa din.

    -Huli man daw at magaling, nag hahabol pa din.

Ang hindi marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan,  hindi makakarating sa paroroonan.

    -Ang hindi marunong  lumingon sa pinanggalingan, sigurado na sa paroroonan.

    -Ang hindi marunong  lumingon sa pinanggalingan,  ay nagmamadali.

    -Ang hindi marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan, ay huwag akusahang may stiff neck.

Habang may buhay, may pag-asa.

    -Habang may buhay,  may taong puro asa.

    -Habang may buhay, may pa-asa.

Huwag magbilang ng manok hangga’t hindi napipisa ang itlog.

   -Huwag mag bilang ng manok kung itik ang alaga mo.

  - Huwag mag bilang ng manok hangga’t hindi ka pa marunong mag bilang.

Papunta ka pa lang, pabalik na ako.

   -Papunta ka pa lang, papunta pa lang din ako.

Aanhin pa ang damo, kung patay na ang kabayo.

  -Aanhin pa ang damo, kung choosy na ang kabayo.

  -Ibigay sa kambing ang damo, kung patay na ang kabayo.

  -Bumili ng kambing, kung walang kabayo.

  -Ilibing ang kabayo at kainin ang damo, para wala ng aanhin pa.

BEYOND EXTENT

If there are things here on earth that our mind couldn't  reach the most further understanding, we   regard it as mystery, and  if the term reality affects our questioning of  belief,  we even call it magic. Obviously, the word supernatural  is to describe what is off to nature and what is inexplicable to human’s  way of  thinking...

Perhaps, or probably,  the  principle could be  “humanity is bound to what is universal” ....beyond to that  is considered unknown. 

 If I don’t  have any scientific theories and I haven’t   created any  proven facts in the world of science, my   self-credited- magnanimous   inventions is  nothing but a piece of crap. No matter how sure I am  to my  newly found creations and ideas, it is  likely a junk if  nobody reaches  the perception of what exactly I am trying to prove...
Maybe that is the reason why Einstein come up with E=mc2  to explain matter and energy, so as  Newton‘s Law of motion involving  moon and the drop of an apple just  to describe exactly what he means about  gravity. Without those, their  brilliant ideas will never be understood and can never be applied to something  more essential if  they both couldn't explain it  further.


There is an ancient beliefs  that  the earth is just a  flat surface.  They’re even afraid to sail a boat, for fear of a sudden fall down because they couldn't figure out where the heck is the end of the sea. Yeah..that’s a ridiculous thing to believe today knowing we are 101%  sure it’s not (unless you’re in doubt) , you see, we are now living in “instant pancit canton” era where creating a fire in just a seconds is not a mystery anymore.   As of will, curiosity or for some other reasons, along came Magellan , Columbus and others, who traveled  the world and reached  the fact that the earth is definitely not  just  a flat. Because of substantial knowledge,  those persons has surpassed what’s BEYOND the idea of  that old beliefs ...

(oblate spheroid is close to earth's shape,so far that’s the latest)

In the movie “ The Time Machine”(2002),  There are some events  in each  era that  is  considered impossible even to imagine today. The flying cars along space highway could only  just in the movie like we usually thought.. but after a couple of millennium, our time today  will also be considered as ancient, and who knows, by that time,  they will even laugh harder on us for not having a single chance to have a 3 days vacation in  Saturn or in Mars...

So, what am I trying to say here exactly?


Who says “there is nothing  beyond our reach”?  Who think so, that because we have Neil Armstrong who set foot upon the moon and we have Robert Hooke’s microscope for the tiniest cell visualization, nothing is impossible to discover?
If you say and think so...let’s go back to some science we may  have  forgotten  long time ago, here’s the  clues and reasons to think about it over again.

Way back centuries ...

Two Greeks (Democritus and Leucippus) founded the basic unit of matter, atom. Robert H. invented Microscope, and because of some  microscopic advances,  the discovery of cell was born. 

Warning: Science with questions over questions in deep inception is about to start...         

                                   
What era  are we in right now? (yeah “instant pancit canton”era)  Touch screens, humanoid robots and the like don’t  trigger ignorance anymore  on us..but after all of these.. does anybody knows if an atom being the smallest unit of matter is also composed of atom? We know there’s  charges in it, the pro-, elect-,and neutrons .. do they have the small parts with charges too? Likewise with the cell,  does Eukaryota cell’s nucleolus inside nucleus is also composed of cell  with nucleus having nucleolus inside? Oops! OK I heard you, genius... DNA!RNA! Yeah..so, does that DNA has cells with DNA too?

Just in case you’re on 3rd level of your dream  inside your dream here’s the kick to wake you up...

Has anyone made a 1000X zoom clear  version of atom and cell?                                                            
If that subject matter is too small to understand, we’ll proceed to some  huge one.


The popular Big Bang theory (for crying out loud, not the sitcom) according to wiki it happened 13.7 billion  years ago where the general evolution of the universe begun..from that point up to our time today where satellites are  in space... does anybody from NASA can define what exactly is there outside the universe? ...milky way? Asteroids? comets?..yeah.. now what’s beyond to that beyond?

Because of this blog  entry I ask google about it for the first time, I first made my unfortunate attempt in asking about it when I was in 5th grade, to my Science teacher,and I ended up getting -10 in our10 items quiz, accusing me “cracking a joke during lecture”(or for putting her to an intimidating situation prior to shame)  ...anyway, google only gave me theories that no matter how broad the idea  is, you will still find reading explanations that maybe a bit far above, yet  still stuck within the universe.

If you happen to realize that all questions here, from smallest to largest is in  pattern of  “whats inside-inside and what’s outside-outside” you know exactly what i mean..

NOBODY in this planet has the definite answer.

THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING BEYOND OUR REACH...something we might discover in the future upon perceiving enough knowledge, or something we can never reach out.

If we can’t do it beyond to that extent ...that is how it should be, it is left there to speak for HIS existence.

References :

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parts_of_cell#Subcellular_components
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Universe
http://io9.com/5799335/five-weird-theories-of-what-lies-outside-the-universe

UGAT PUNO AT BUNGA

“Nak-ow!! Ang mga kabataan ngay-own  masyaaaado nang iba kumpara no-ownnn..”

Sambit ni tatang na animo’y nag mamaktol  habang naka upo sa sulok  ng isdaan sa  palengke...kung hindi lang sana ako nag mamadali na i-uwi ang pinamalengke ko,  gusto ko sana tanungin pa si tatang ng gan’to..

“bakit tang? Ano po ba'ng uri ng mga kabataan ang meron kayo noon?”                                                       ...syempre bukod sa nagmamadali ako ay magmumuka akong ewan kapag nakipag buno ako ng tanong at paliwanag kay tatang..kaya hindi na ako nangahas...

Pero dahil sa matagal na akong napapaisip sa isyung kabataan noon at ngayon...sinubukan kong timbangin ang rason ng alboroto ni tatang at ang bumubula kong katanungan...papaliko na ako sa may amin at  sakto.. habang  naninimbang ako sa isipan ay biglang may  ale akong narinig...

“put*ng ina mo ka?!! Ka bata bata mo pa nag mumura kana?!pumasok ka don!!g*go!!”

.. hindi ko alam kong  joke lang ba narinig ko o seryoso ang ale na murahin ang bata na tansya  ko ay anim na taong gulang...

Sa tingin ko ay limot na ni tatang ang ugat na pinanggalingan ng mga kabataan...

BASTOS AT  MAHAHALAY  daw ang mga kabataan ngayon-  yun ba  ay dahil noong nasa sinapupunan pa lang ay hindi sadyang buong na lunok  ng nanay ang isang porn magazine at nakita  ito ng fetus kaya sya naging bastos at mahalay pag laki??

WALANG MODO AT WALANG GALANG din daw sila- ito ba ay dahil lahat ng mga matatanda ay magagalang at sadya lang talagang naimbento ng mga kabataan ang salitang  put-*ng-in-*-mo ng kusa at otomatik na tumitiklop ang mga tenga nila sa salitang po at opo??

IMORAL NA ANG SEKSWALIDAD NA PANANAW ng mga kabataan- may mga kabataan ba na  noong sila ay wala pang isang taon sa mundo ay  sadyang   manyak na? sila ba ay nakaramdam agad ng pag-ka lito sa kanilang kasarian habang pinoputol ang pusod nila? o di kaya ay habang  dumi-dede pa lang si baby pachuchay sa kanyang ina ay plano na nito na makipag-talik  sa kung kani kanino oras na mag dalaga sya..(haneeeeeep)

Kung yan ang tunay na dahilan ...ALIEN ang mga batang yan...

Napaka daming sisi sa mga kabataan na hindi inalam ang pinanggalingan ng dahilan kung bakit...hindi binungkal ang ugat ng puno..at kung mas pinalalim pa...napagkamalang   mabantot na tiyesa  ang bunga ng bulok na puno ng mangga.

Limot na ata ng matatanda ang kasabihang “kung ano ang puno ay ganun din ang bunga” .   

Masyadong natabunan ng maling sisi ang magandang sulok na kaibahan ng kabataan ngayon...sadya atang mas matingkad ang kulay ng kamalian na nagawa ni totoy at ineng  ng kasalukuyan kumpara noon kaya mas pansin  ni tatang ...o di kaya’y dala ng katandaan ay limot na nya ang kaibahan nito..kung sa bagay, kung  ilang magkakaibang kulay ng henerasyon ba naman ang hihimok sa kilos, ugali,pag iisip at  pananalita  ni baby pachuchay,  asahan mong dihamak na mas makulay ito..

Nag-baliw baliwan ng konte ang isip ko at sumagi and desisiyon na minsan, kapag may pag kakataon na kagaya sa palengke kung saan may matandang malaki ang himutok sa kabataan ay mag lalakas loob akong umekstra ng paliwanag... ngunit bigla ko naalala ang lola ko...

“...Mag-tapos ka ng pag-aaral..wag ka mag aasawa agad..mamaya malaman namin buntis ka na o kung ano dyan..wag ka mag madali..palibasa mga kabataan ngayon masyado ng mapupusok..”

Ito ang madalas na linya ni lola..

Tapos na ako ng kolehiyo ng malaman ko kay mama na minor de edad pa lang si lola noong nag asawa sya.

Isang malaking pasigaw na  HALERRRRR!!! ang na sambit ko sa utak ko...

Siguro ay nakalimot din si lola gaya ni tatang....pareho silang nakalimot..o nilimot.. na minsan din silang naging isang bunga ng mga puno at ugat na pinanggalingan nila..

Kaya  hindi  tugma ang timbangan ni tatang at lola at sumobra ng ilang kilong husga ang pananaw nila ...dahil kinaligtaan ang katotohanan na meron palang tinatawag na SANGA.