WELCOMING PAIN

There are times like you were alone, agitated by pain,and you thought nobody is there for you......

...to talk about loneliness to lend arms while you pour your tears out....to stay with you and help you with things, like cutting your neck off desperately when things get worse..

With all of those dramatic scenario, surely, nobody would. Its like sharing them your headaches....

no...

i mean giving them headaches....

....and the pain is bouncing back at you when you realize that there really is nobody.

I have experienced that, and i guess one of the most hurting part of pain is having no choice but to welcome it, and the sucky part is that you can't share it fully to anybody.
Pain usually opperates alone, it needs no assistance, yet, its irresistable and can never be won over by just simply pretending that its not hurting.

When i was in pain none of those stuffs or ways, known to relieve stress, pain and blah blah worked. I find them useless and I consider them a trick. So instead of pushing pain away, I gave it a welcoming entrance... and let it linger inside.

Its like, if I am hurt, then so be it. If I cry, I would cry more. If I feel lonely, then I would prefer to be alone. If my heart is filled with sadness, I will let it flow with sadness... and ALAS! its effective!!

P-A-I-N

...just let your self be exhausted with it, because when you get tired of being hurt, when you shocked your self in the mirror for having a popped-eyes , when you're bored of being alone, when you noticed that you can't breath because you sunk your heart too much with sadness...

there is only one you and you alone who would decide when to give a kind exit for pain... and in the process you will learn...

I did.....

I just did.


*It was my first post on my friendster blog dated April 13,2007..
http://nadzkhi.blog.friendster.com/2007/04/welcoming-pain/.
..and I made a post to "Your sad story" site dated November 20,2007..
http://www.yoursadstory.com/feedbacks.php?topicid=228
 Im glad somebody on earth appreciated my work..3 days after i posted it to "Your sad story" another site made a re post dated November 23, 2007..thanks tristancafe..
http://www.tristancafe.com/forum/128760#post_a_comment
(i didn't made any corrections to my wrong spellings...preserving what exactly is on my Friendster blog)